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In case I didn't mention this yet, all the grad schools to which I applied rejected me, except for BU, which accepted me into their M.A. program, which has no funding at all and costs something like $60k for the year. So with those results, I basically gave up on advanced education. I emailed the director at BU and asked what I could do to make myself a better candidate, and she said attend BU, because doing well in an M.A. program (and completing it) will help a lot.

But I can't afford $60k, so no. So I gave up forever on grad school.

But I just got an email today from NYU, telling me that the Dean's Office has evaluated my recent application and decided I am a prime candidate for the John W. Draper Interdisciplinary Master's Program in Humanities and Social Thought. I'd basically develop my own curriculum to suit my interests/goals, and they offer courses in the six different areas (Art Worlds, The City, Gender Politics, Global Histories, Literary Cultures, and Science Studies).

I got the email and promptly trashed it. But I haven't stopped thinking about it since this morning, and I keep going back to it and looking at it, and wondering, and thinking...

I went to the [personal profile] website of the program. The courses sound pretty cool, and Gender Politics definitely includes sexuality. It takes about two years, I guess, because you have to write a lengthy thesis at the end.

To apply, all I would have to do is write a 350-500 word statement of purpose relating specifically to this program. I wouldn't have to send any more money, and I wouldn't have to recruit more recommendations, since they have all that already. It's not due until July 1st, but they said the sooner the better.

I don't know what to do. Part of me says "Apply. Who cares? It's free. What will you lose?" But I'm trying to be practical. Will I be able to afford this? Is this something I'd want to do? Is this something that would be good for my "career" or my ambitions?

I really have no idea.

Life is hard and I suck at it!

Edit: I should add that the website does mention scholarships that pay for half the tuition, as well as a dedicated financial aid office to help you come up with the rest of the money.
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